B/W results

One of the nurses called me back and everything is normal.  My Dr. even got another blood specialist to look at my blood-work and they said it was fine.  This is an answer to our prayers.

we bought a house!!

YIPPIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

house

Quick update:


This week has been CRAZY busy, but I just faxed the offer to our agent!!!


It looks kinda plain in this picture, but it has so many of the must haves on our list; including almost 8 acres of land.....stay tuned hopefully we will have a contract on a house this weekend!!! Hope over to my other blog if you want to see some more pictures of the inside.

meeting tonight

We are going to a local meeting for parents who have lost babies.  I will update my thoughts later.

Pray for strength and courage for us tonight, it will be hard to walk in those doors.

b/w today

Headed to the DR to have some blood work redone today.  If you get a minute please pray for a negative test result, I had some infectious blood work come back positive.  It was the antinuclear antibodies, my DR is not really concerned about it, but I would like it to come back negative so we don't have to worry that it is an issue for us.  DR did say that 10% of the population walks around with a positive and it is no big deal and I could have just been positive because I was pregnant.  This is the last thing that I am having done with this pregnancy.  It is kinda sad because it is another reminder that it is over.

Did anyone watch Private Practice last week?  We watched it last night and it had both of us in tears.  This family had to let their little boy go, he was 2 pounds.  Our babies were a bit smaller than the one on the show.   It was so hard to watch the mom sing to her son, like I sang to my little boys.  It was so hard to hear all the dreams they had for their baby and remember we had those dreams too.

beautiful faces

How did those 2 beautiful faces come from my body?  How did Chris and I make these perfect tiny babies and they are not here with us?

My boys had little lips, tiny noses, eyebrows that were beginning to appear, even a tiny tongue peaked out behind his lips.  They had twenty toes and twenty figures all perfectly formed.

We are not just grieving one baby, but two babies.  We are grieving the dreams of twins, we are missing those identical faces that we thought we were going to kiss so much.

I am missing seeing my husband hold his sons and watch them grow.  They should still be with us, they should be still growing inside me!  I am so sad, MAD, lonely and physically hurt that they are gone.

My precious sons that were only here for a brief moment of my life have forever changed me and I will never be the same again.  I miss them, I want them, I still think of them ALL the time.

I love you both so much; my heart will always love you.

Kelly's Korner: Show Us Your Life - Show Us Your Ministry

Kelly's Korner: Show Us Your Life - Show Us Your Ministry

Today I added my blog to Kelly's Korner's list of blogs. Kelly is a christian woman who traveled the journey of infertility and was blessed with the most beautiful little girl Harper. I have enjoyed reading her blog and watching Harper grow and model many cute outfits!

Today her blog is show us how you live day. Today is a special day, it is not about clothes or food, but the trials that all her blog followers have gone through. If you have never checked out her blog, you should; you might just find other blogs of people who are going through similar situations.

As Kelly so eloquently put it:

"Today is a day for you to link up if you have a blog dedicated to ministering to people. If you have something that can help encourage others through something you have been through. It may be infertility, adoption, singleness, the loss of a child, the loss of a spouse, financial issues, abuse, addictions ..........so many other things.
You don't just need a website dedicated to this......if you want to just share your testimony in some kind of area and offer encouragement - I would love for you to do that.

And if you are struggling in any area of your life - I hope that you will find a link that speaks to you and find hope and know you are NOT alone!"

Thank you Kelly!

Please let me know if you posted your blogs over there too! I have noticed that I have many new followers and have not had the time to check out all of your blogs