stressing myself out

I need to relax.  I know this.  But it is easier said than done.

I swear these birth control pills are making me crazy.  I get annoyed at the smallest thing and my poor husband is bearing the brunt of my frustration. I have been comparing this to my "clomid crazy" days.  I am double booking myself and Owen to things and just generally can't remember things.

Here is the biggie that I just realized today:  IVF class is 11am 1 hour north of our house and Disney on Ice is at 10:30am 1 hour south of our house!  I am so MAD at myself.  I could move our class to the 27th, but it makes me sad to push it back even more not that a week is that much of a difference.  Lets pray they have a cancellation and I get worked in.

These pills are also making me so tired, I can get a full nights sleep but still feel like I could pass out or take a 3 hour nap everyday.

I need:
A bubble bath
A back massage
My hair brushed
My house deep cleaned by someone else
My basement organized for me
A personal grocery shopper
Less pregnancy announcements on FB

8 days and the end of BCP will be in sight! I hope!

Nov. 6

Today was an unusual Tuesday.  We usually have Charlie with us, but today Owen had a dr appointment and Daddy went with us.  After the doctors, we headed to our old neighborhood to vote because we hadn't switched our registration yet!  Thankfully, there was no line and we were in and out pretty quick!  Owen can now say he had his first voting experience.  I think he was more impressed with the sticker!

We headed off to eat at an old favorite restaurant and then headed back home.  Owen was late going down for his nap and was getting a little wild, but thankfully he is asleep now and Mommy and Daddy are getting lots done while he sleeps!

Check our our matching jackets!  Not planned!

coloring with Daddy was fun! And the pink lemonade was YUMMY in my cup!

Nov. 5

This morning my son learned to say morning.  He may have said "good morning, mommy/daddy" about 10 times!  He is such a good boy and I am soaking up his goodness!!

10 days till 10k

No, I am not talking about running a 10k.  Today as I wrote the date, Nov 5th; it hit me that in 10 days I will know our IVF schedule and will be writing a rather large check for 10k.  Today, I also canceled my gym membership.  I will have 10 more days to run my butt off....maybe I should have a goal of 10 miles!

(rambling warning) Apparently, this is the post where I am trying to say 10 as many times as possible!  Unfortunately, my creativity is stalling out at 7 times of saying 10, so I probably will not be able to say it 10 times in this post of 10! Ops, I did say it 10 times!! haha!

A girl will do anything to keep busy!

Nov. 4

"Thank you Jesus for a wonderful day."

Early on in Owen's life this is one of the last things I would say to him every night.  Recently, we started really praying with him.  Asking him for other things that he is thankful for.  I think now he knows to start listing the people and objects in his life.  It is really sweet.   I will say "Owen, lets thank Jesus for...."  Grandparents, Mommy, Daddy, MeMe all show up on the list very often.  Then at the end I say "ok Owen what do we say at the end of the prayer?"  Amen.  A sweet little voice that stretches out the ahhhhh-men; usually included with a head bob!

Then I used to just say "night night Mommy loves you", but now its a bit longer as I get requests for "night night MeMe, and Bear Bear"  LOL!  I love it!

12 days to go

12 days till IVF class and shelling out more money for something that may never be tangible.

Definition of Infertility:
Infertility: A medical condition which diminishes self-esteem, your social life, as well as checking and savings accounts. Causes sudden urges to pee on sticks, cry, scream, and a fear of pregnancy announcements. Treated by a medical specialist who you pay to knock you up but this does not always work. Affects 1 in 10 couples. 

Ok the real one is: 
Infertility is the failure of a couple to conceive a pregnancy after trying to do so for at least one full year. In primary infertility, pregnancy has never occurred. In secondary infertility, one or both members of the couple have previously conceived, but are unable to conceive again after a full year of trying.

I think all of the above applies to me!

Nov. 3

Oh how our Saturdays seem to run together, but they are all so different.  This morning I let Chris sleep in and Owen and I got up and snuggled, ate breakfast and played with MeMe!  "Play MeMe" This phrase dominates our life most days.  At about 10am we "knock knock" on "Daddy's Room".  The fun began when daddy got up and my men sat on the floor and played guitar for a good long while.

Mommy got some special "her" time and ran to Greensboro for the Holiday Market and shopping with her long time friend April!  I think both ladies needed some girl time and both had issues buying food!  LOL!  Then I got our tickets for Disney on Ice (thank you Aunt Sara!)

I headed home and threw Owen in the car and we rolled up to a very special princess birthday party for two sweet sisters!  Owen was on of the 2 boys there, but I don't think he noticed!

my prince

We headed home and spent the evening with daddy even snuggled in mommy and daddy's big bed before putting the little boy into the crib.