snowed in and loving it!

I know that there are a lot of people out there wanting to know we how we are doing.  We are having good days and bad days.  Some days are just plain harder than others.  Some days I am ok, I understand that this was God's will for my family.  That Chris did get his prayer answered for healthy babies.  It was just not the answer we thought it would be.  As I keep telling everyone, I don't have to like God's will for us and truthfully I don't like it one bit.  But it happened.  We don't have our babies still growing in me.  I realized that one day I might understand this.

But then other days I am an emotional mess, I can't help but think about all the things I would have done with our sons, the fun we would have had, the love I would have given them.  I picture my husband holding them and I feel like I might not make it another minute.  Basically, last week was a rough week.  It is hard being back to work and it is mentally exhausting. 

But today so far is a good day. Last night Chris and I watched a Harry Potter movie, we are way behind and are working our way through all the series.  At least I don't have to worry about the plots upsetting me!  Then we went to bed early (early for a weekend night) and slept till 10:30!  I needed that sleep.  This morning we slowing got out of bed enjoying that we have no schedule for the day.  We watched some TV and then decided to be responsible adults doing some filing of the mound of papers that seems to accumulate around the house and then we did some quick cleaning.  We even started doing our laundry which is usually reserved for Sundays.  I am quite proud of all we got accomplished before 3pm.  I've even pulled a turkey pie from the freezer for dinner (thanks Jennifer!). 

I just finished a good book, and Chris is playing guitar.  Sounds like today he is enjoying himself.  We are ok, not great, but certainly not bad.  We are learning to live without our sons.  Basically, we are living and as always loving each other.